Wanting and waiting..

The time has come.. The time of discontentment. The time of ungratefulness and grumbling. Yes friends, I am there. It is a dark valley where I find myself often. Sometimes I can be walking through it without even knowing I am there and that my heart is out of sorts. Then there are times like these where I become fully aware that my heart is snagged in this valley. It is caught here. I suppose it all started a few months ago. My hub and I have been throwing around the idea of buying our first home together. This is a great idea you say? I agree. So then why the problem? The problem began when I started to become obsessed with this idea. It had to be real, I HAD to have a home by next year. We HAD to be financially ready. I HAVE to find a better job so that we can save all we can for our down payment. Yes, herein lies the problem. The problem of valuing something above God, above my good sense, above my husbands feelings on the matter at times as well. I am compelled to ask myself, Do I love God in this way? Am I THIS desperate for Him? My heart aches to learn the answer is no. I cannot even at times put my husbands feelings above mine. On occasion when there has been an emergency or unexpected bill I have had such a miserable attitude about having to borrow from our house savings account, when I should be thanking God that it is there at all and we CAN use that money if we MUST. Funny how God shows and reveals things.
So, it is not acceptable to just have this realization and do nothing about it.Therefore, I must strive to desire more of God knowing that if I desire Him above all, then He will give me the desires of my heart.

How sad it is

 It is dark times for America. I am semi ashamed to call myself an American these days much less a Christian. Why you ask? It saddens my heart to think that Americans are watching some fruitcake pastor in Florida who wants to burn the Koran and think that THAT is what a Christian is. It is a travesty. No, I am not anti-American; I remember where I was and what I was doing on 9/11 and how devastating that was. Yes, I am taking a stand against an attitude of ignorance and straight up stupidity. I ask, does this pastor think he is somehow MORE American because of his actions? Does he think he is more Christian than other people because of his actions? I would go back to one of the fundamental things that Jesus said, "Do unto others as you would want done unto you". Seriously people have we become so caught up in all the media hype and attention that we are forgetting the basics?! I truly wish that the media would just stop the hemorrhage and not give these actions any attention. How many people do you think would engage in such actions if they knew no one would watch them do it? I'm betting not a lot. I feel closer to the Muslim gentleman who showed up on the news today and reached out to this crazy pastor in a gesture of friendship. Now THAT is what I'm talking about, kindness, gentleness, and an open mind. I pray that when Jesus comes back to claim his own He will set the record straight about how He really would have wanted us to handle all of this madness. I bet burning a copy of the Koran isn’t on His agenda though.

Whats so special about balls?

Ever notice that Americans are OBSESSED with balls. I mean, baseball, soccer, basketball, football, tennis even all revolve around hitting, kicking, throwing, passing a ball. I never understood tennis. I cant play it due to lack of coordination but I never understood the rules either.
Football and baseball are probably the most enjoyable sports for me. I like football because I can understand it and its so primative. All these big guys just slamming into one another. Baseball is classic so I dont know how you can NOT like baseball.
Its amazing now a days that I can watch the game on my phone! I could never go back to a normal phone.. not after having smartphones and now the iphone.
Hey the game is on!